The box of letters that used to make me smile

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:01:19 GMT

it was really nice seeing everyone and being home this weekend to relax although it felt so short!
and im stressing over midterms and assignments that all get to be due the same day yay! lol
posting the prom pictures makes me wish that things were simple like highschool days where you dont have midterms lol
anyways good luck to everyone on their midterms!
xo

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 19:43:03 GMT

I MADE THE SKATING TEAM.... YAY
and i have strep throat
what a day...

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 03:00:27 GMT

tmw at 11 i loose my wisdom:(

Tue, 29 May 2007 03:24:52 GMT

your starting to show your true colours and i dont really like them anymore!

IM GOING TO LAURIER NEXT YEAR im excited but nervous because i dont know who my roommate is!!! i hope they like me:)

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 02:17:37 GMT

stupid klutzy me falls at skating on my thumb a stupid joint. dont get it checked out because it wasnt a big deal. boy was i wrong! not only may have i broke it but i have ligament tears, which means SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!! n even if i broke it means surgery! as soon as im back to my "normal" self i get injuried, serious injury!!!!!! i quit!

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 04:42:15 GMT

i know theres nothing left when you ask me for advice on a girl-ouch!

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 23:37:57 GMT

this wasnt even a march break for me as i didnt even get a break, i worked every day from 8-4:30 and then went to skating, didnt see anyone because when i wasnt at the rink or work i was sleeping. i think im depressed or on my way there because i dont feel like myself at all. i feel like im having an out of body experience lately. i dont want to go to high school any more because its stupid, but then i dont think im ready for university because im not sure im going to fit in or make friends or find a new guy. i dont want to be at home anymore because i cant do anything without getting nagged or some sort of yelling.and i cant stay in mississauga anymore because i hate this repeative lifestyle and having nothing to do constantly.
on a somewhat happier note my bday is in fourteen days, whcih means i get a day devoted to me (concieted but im a middle child, i get no attention lol) and i get presents which will most likely be clothes because i hate all of my wadrobe. but i need ideas for my eightteenthe bday party because its a big year and at the rate im going/feeling i wont do anything but crawl into bed. lol

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 05:55:26 GMT

i honestly think this has been the worst month of my life! nothing in any of the areas of my life is good nor does it make me happy. the only thing that works for me now is skating and if i could quit everything and just live at the rink i would.
Today i finished my 80's solo and its jokes which makes me smile so you ppl should all come and watch it because you will laugh!

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 03:14:38 GMT

today has been a really bad day for my family as i just found out that i need to go to two funerals this weekend as my aunt and my aunts mom (not related to each other) have passed away this evening. This will be not so much fun!

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 04:33:48 GMT

i watched the six o'clock news!

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 00:53:08 GMT

ummm halloween is on tuesday and i have to dress up for the assembly but i dont know what i should be!?!?
any suggestions?

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 18:39:52 GMT

can anything ever just be normal for me like even when i think things are good there not! go ahead think thigns over i cant promise ill wait!

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 22:51:35 GMT

goodbye frustrations! hello vacation!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 20:44:44 GMT

i seriously can not wait to get out of here and not have to see people ever again if i dont want to!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 20:02:09 GMT

Work work work that is all i have been doing lately! im not liking this summer and i know from now on my days of watching cartoons and playing outside are really over. I feel like i have hardly seen anyone and most of i havent seen my boyfriend in like a week which to me feels like five friggin years! ugh oh im a drama queen i know but i just wish that we all didnt have to grow up and get jobs because jobs are ruining my summer especially my wanted to be friends weekend at my cottage gee golly this isnt fun!
xoxo

why am i always so busy

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 04:20:34 GMT

phew i am finally done my exams..hooray and you think my summer would start but of course not i have to work and train to work ugh and theres so much to be done and i cantfit it in geez there needs to be like 12 of me it would make my life so much easier. everything has been kinda stressful for me i guess because i feel like theres tension or something going on and i just wish that everyone could play nicely like we did when we were in kindergarten no gets left out no feels unwanted and everyone plays duck duck goose i hope it goes back to those days *crosses fingers*
ummm so im definitly not ever watching the hills have eyes ever again like that movie was scary but disturbing and ugh like i actually made kevin check the back seat and around the car for killers and mutated people im a whimp i know get over it
night tmw i have a fun filled day of training talk to you guys at five! lol
xoxox

sisters...no one really needs them

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 03:33:37 GMT

so tonight i got into a huge fight with my second oldest sister kristi over something stupid and that was needed to turn into a big thing but that is how me and my sister fight and this is how it went as i typed this all to jess and im not in the mood to say it all again
okay ever since my sister kristi the second one has come home she has been really moody with me
6/15/2006 10:40:26 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; but thats fine because thats how our relationship is
6/15/2006 10:40:36 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; because she used to like actually hate me
6/15/2006 10:40:47 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å i highly doubt that lyss
6/15/2006 10:41:27 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; no umm ever since i was bored shes hated me in one of her school projects she wrote as her negative experience in her life the day i was born
6/15/2006 10:41:59 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å :|
6/15/2006 10:42:06 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; so yeah anyways
6/15/2006 10:42:17 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; lately she has been very like passive aggressive with me
6/15/2006 10:42:28 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; like making mean comments picking little fights and trying to parent me
6/15/2006 10:42:38 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and so far i have brushed it off
6/15/2006 10:42:54 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and in my house everyweek each kid has a chore and mine this week was garbage
6/15/2006 10:43:57 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and our new garbage day is monday so late sunday night i did all the garbage and my dad said i did a really good job but the only two garbages i didnt empty were my two sisters bedrooms as they were both asleep and i was being nice and didnt want to disturb the as they had to go to work the next day
6/15/2006 10:44:08 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and i told my self and my dad that i would do them later
6/15/2006 10:44:23 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; but then i had a bunch of shit for school to do you know being the last week and all
6/15/2006 10:44:34 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; so i forgot and thats my mistake and i admitt it
6/15/2006 10:45:23 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; but when i get home from phsyio my daad was making me a hamburger for dinner and while im waiting my sister starts bitching about how i ahvent done my job at all and a bunch of shit like that and i was just like ummm no
6/15/2006 10:45:47 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; because she is the type of person that if she helps out once she think she has done so much and then she yells at you for not doing anything
6/15/2006 10:45:52 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and i wasnt going to take this time
6/15/2006 10:46:45 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; and then i said i didnt want to talk to her anymore and she starts like following me around me house yelling at me and being a bitch to me so i was being a bitch back which is natural and i was just making noise so i couldnt hear her anymore and she was like ready to punch me in the face and then she
6/15/2006 10:46:54 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; like starting crying to her boyfriend and left the house
6/15/2006 10:47:27 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; so then we didnt talk or even go in the same section of my house for a couple of hours so w.es but then when i came upstairs to do my homework she put her garbage in my room
6/15/2006 10:47:54 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; so i put it back in hers becasue if she is going to critize the way i did my job she can do it her self and then she came into my room and whipped it in my face
6/15/2006 10:48:22 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; like full out smacked me so i took it and purposly ripped the bag and threw it at her and she starting balling and so on and so forth
6/15/2006 10:48:46 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; but the thing that pisses me off the most is that she last week went away and someone else in my house had to do her dishes cuz she wasnt here
6/15/2006 10:48:49 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; like ugh
6/15/2006 10:49:12 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å ohmygosh :|
6/15/2006 10:49:15 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å thats horrible!
6/15/2006 10:49:20 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; what i did
6/15/2006 10:49:23 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; or what happened
6/15/2006 10:49:36 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å what happened
6/15/2006 10:50:13 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å it wasnt even that big of a deal to begin with!!! why does your sister care so much about 1 bag of garbage so much anyway? no offence
6/15/2006 10:50:14 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; yeah well this is how me and my sister fight
6/15/2006 10:50:22 PM Å£¥§§å >>JESSICA; EXACTLY
6/15/2006 10:50:29 PM >>JESSICA; Å£¥§§å jeez!
and now my sister is still telling my dad how im such a terrible person and blah blah blah
so from now on i have decided that i dont need her in my life right now so silent treatment she gets
ttyl
xoox

i feel helpless

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 05:00:45 GMT

everything with kevin so far has been amazing like i am seriously so inlove with him its stupid! and its better then the thing that deosnt count because it was in grade nine lol. but lately keivn has been worrying me, i know something is wrong but he wont tell me and as much as i want him to so i can be there for him or just try and understand him for like a spilt second but i cant force him to and i just feel so helpless. and most of all im scared i fucked up again i know thats like the worse thing to say because its not like im in a controlling relationship or anything serious like that i just i dont want anything to go wrong!
ugh when did life get so complicated!
xoxo

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 03:13:30 GMT

i seriously think that i need to go to a support group for being such a procrastinator... like Procrastinators Annyomis i think so
Because my isu is due tmw and im not even finished the book but im just gonna bullshit it!!!! ugh i hate this i need a break from school.
and its all kevin's fault because i have definitly fallen hard for this boy and he distracts me like i think about him all the time and today ive just missed him like crazy! ugh stupid teenaged-ness with hormones
lol
xoxo

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 00:51:36 GMT

Today i discovered that my eyes act like mood rings a.k.a when i cry they become really like tourquois blue! you can ask lauren and jess.
But diet starts tommorrow, no more junk food!
today was a stressful day in a nutshell thats it!

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 03:39:37 GMT

so i just came back from a soccer game my teams and like half the team is gone and thats depressing, and it was depressing to watch because im crippled and want to be playing not watching! and then on the way home my dad and i had a heart to heart about my future and honestly any time a person brings it up i want to cry because i hate change and leaving high school scares the shit out of me. But besides all things and other ppls opinions on wether i should stay or not or go to school right away the plan so far is become a skating coach and keep on skating as ive missed a year and a half!!!! ugh stupid number eight!
but yea i wish i was peter pan so i could never grow up and change!
xoxo

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 21:48:55 GMT

i got my stitches out today and no more crutches YAY PIRATE LIMP...jealous i thought so.
today was uber boring at school but i found out that teachers hate dance offs and that i have aids
sucessful i know
but its gloomy and boring and blah
anywhore i have nothign good to write about so bye
xoxo

High School

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 23:26:11 GMT

high school is always dramatic!
xox

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 00:36:58 GMT

Well tmw is the big day. And i have to admit im kind of scared. Im scared of being naked lol because if i wear underwear it will catch on fire.lol chloe im afarid the nurses will try to go to second base again lol
but im scared about how ill feel after and if it will hold together and staying over night
and complications that could happen. im just plain old scared but im also excited becasue this means i can sakte again and play soccer again and be normal again!!!!
i just wish i was more prepared it feels surreal that my surgery is tmw!!
eeekkkkk
xoxox

My Busy Week

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 22:09:59 GMT

So this week is mega busy for me as im having surgery on Thursday and My BIRTHDAY SATURDAY!!! im really nervous/excited. Like this is the big surgery the one ive been waiting like eight months for the one that will finally put my life back together but yet im totally scared. Like what if i get a blood clot and die! This is big time surgery the real deal!!! And then its my seventeenth birfday which is also scary cuz it means im growing up and i hate growing up if i could go to never land id be there in a heart beat!!! but yeah
but i hope everything goes well as surgery is coming closer and closer and its all becoming more real
ugh
xoxo